Yesterday was weird.
I went to lunch with two friends... ice cream in the evening with another... then to my nephew's (Sofia's dads sister's kids) birthday.
The lunch was nice... other than I had anxiety about being away from my house. They picked me up, so I was a passenger not in control of the destination, which didn't help. My one friend commented and said they felt pregnant (aka bloated), I replied that they did not know what that felt like (all while thinking I wish I could still feel that).
Ice cream was nice... I was picked up again. We parked in the downtown mall parking lot and walked to the circle. It was nice outside.
The birthday party was nice. I love that side of my family, and even though Sofia's dad and I aren't together anymore, I always will, and they always will be my family. My beautiful 2 year old step daughter, Yazmyn, was there. I guess before I had gotten there, she kept asking where I was and that she wanted me to hold her while they did the pinatas. She gets a little scared with loud noises. When I got there she ran up to me and jumped in my arms yelling, "LIIINNNDSSEEYYY!" I love her so much, and at that time I had the brief thought of, "Why won't I ever be able to have Sofia run up to me like that yelling 'MAMI!'" The thought was interrupted with Yazmyn giving me a puzzling look and asking, "Where were you at?"
There was food, music, family, and babies. Thank God for their lives and that they get to continue celebrating their birth. A little girl started crying, which is to be expected with the overwhelming amount of children there were, and Yazmyn noticed. She stopped dancing and kind of looked around for a moment until she spotted the solution to this little girls problem. Yazmyn ran over, grabbed a giant yellow balloon, and handed it to the little girl. In that moment, I was so proud of her, and couldn't help but think 'She would have been the best big sister.'
At the end, I loaded Yazmyn in to her Daddy's car, just like I always did. 'One arm in, two arms in, how many arms do you have?! TWO!' I told her I would see her later and she insisted on knowing where I was going. "Where you going? Up to your seat?" (referring to the front passenger seat). I replied, "No mama I am going home to my house..." She looked at me confused, "You mean to grandma's?" We would go to my mom's house often. "No, where your princess bed is, remember?" With a pondering look on her face she replied, "Oh..." I asked her to give me a kiss, "Dame un besito...love you." Which she replied with, "Love you too."
Time keeps moving on, birthdays keep happening, and people keep living. Praise God for that. But at this time, I am still stuck on July 10th.
Te quiero mucho Sofia, mi nina hermosa. Siempre estas en mi corazon, siempre estas conmigo.
-Mami
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